It rained today in California. It is a welcomed change in climate. A hurricane is rolling through the area, and altering the way everything looks and feels, it’s become symbolic and relevant to my recent reality. The wind blew, the rain poured, and it was long over due.
I recently left my job, and familiar occupation of three years after being unfulfilled and unhappy with the lifestyle it provided me. I suffered from a mild case of depression because of this. Underneath the optimism, and smiles, I was hurting and lost. I felt hopeless, so I decided to take a leap of faith, and I now, no longer have to serve tables. The job has brought me into the lives of some amazing humans, and for that I am grateful. It all happens for a reason. Leaving has given me a sense of accomplishment and, I no longer struggle with feeling defeated and stale. I’m moving forward once again.
I’ve also met someone. Someone like me. Anyone who reads these, or knows me personally, knows my dating life has been a train wreck since I’ve become single. I say this next statement with an honest, heartfelt belief, and confidence.This is different. I’m able to be myself and enjoy simple things in her company. It’s refreshing to not have to force anything. The pressure of dating, and moving at a pace that’s uncomfortable to me, personally, is something I struggled with in the past. I never feel this way with her. I feel zero pressure. It feels natural. I find inspiration comes with ease in her company and my worries of the world fade. I feel honored and privileged that this incredibly, brilliant, successful, attractive, humorous, and driven individual, chooses to spend her time with me. She truly is beautiful in every sense of the word. It’s astonishing. If you’re reading this, all those times I just laugh, smile, and say, “nothing”,when you ask why I’m laughing or smiling, that is what I’m thinking, and I finally found a piece of paper to be able to properly express it. Verbalization, clearly, alludes me at the most opportune of moments. I told you I have flaws.
I had been waiting for the rain, the wind, the change in ambiance, the hurricane that would provoke a shift in the atmosphere I reside in. It’s come, and changed everything.The rare event of gloomy days has brought light into my life, and everything I’ve hope for, for some time now, presented themselves. I’ve learned that if you’re, patient and refuse to settle for mediocrity, you can find a place in life where you can live your dreams, and they’ll be better than you ever imagined.
For all the dreamers out there, for
all of us who romanticize life, and are told we’re delusional or wrong, and that it doesn’t exist. They are wrong. Follow you’re heart for it is truthful, and that feeling you have, will never fail you. I promise you