I promised myself three things when moving here. 1) To never lose touch with those I care about, 2) To learn and grow as much as possible, and 3) To delve into surfing and my passion for it. I failed on two of those today. My plans were to get up early and surf, and then to FaceTime with some wonderful people from back East. I slept in and missed not only the surf, but an opportunity to see my friends. It’s my first regret in California. I did succeed in one area, I learned my lesson. It will never happen again.
My biggest fear is to lose touch with the people I love in the East. They made me who I am and brought me to this point in my life. To lose touch with them would be a slap in the face to them, and the ultimate obliteration of an ideal that gives me, my self respect.They are too important, and I will make it up to everyone of them personally. Never forget where you came from, and who you were there with. That place and those people make you. They give you, you’re character.
Now, the women of the OC. I’m reluctant to talk about this, but for anyone whose on the outside reading these I promised I’d be as open with my experiences as possible, and so I shall. There are a few different people who are in pursuit of what I have to offer. Some are very forward. This, I’m not used to. I’m not against it, but I’m not used to it, and by no means is it that easy to obtain my heart, body, or mind. Despite popular belief, and popular opinion, I am not easy, I’ve learned my value and worth the hard way. There is one, who actually likes to take a slower pace. Something I am used to and respect greatly in a person. There’s definite potential in this. We’ll see. I know there’s some people reading this thinking I should be young and free and to just have fun, and think, I should be open to anything. I’m looking for more than just that in a person. That’s easy, that’s shallow. I’m not that type. Finally, there are the crazy ones. The stalker Esq type that have that glazed over look in their eyes. No bueno. Please leave me alone before you decide to go Marky Mark from Fear on me. I do not love you nor, will I ever, I’m sorry but the truth hurts and is good for you.
My best friend put it perfect, “Chris I think women are your biggest problem”. Women are every mans biggest problem and I’m not ashamed to admit that. The world was built on the desperate measures men took to impress women. None the less he is right. So I will stay focused until someone can endure the time to understand my path, and who is walking a similar one. I have goals in mind, I have aspirations and dreams to focus on. Surfing, Writing, My Friends and building something for myself. That is my priority above everything else at this point, and it’ll take one strong, level headed women to deal with that. If she doesn’t exist, at least I know what makes me happy and the road I want to take. Regardless of my slack on promise 1 and 3 to myself, 2 is being covered brilliantly I feel.
What a strange place I’ve decided to start my life. California, you are a beautiful, fickle beast, with many odd characters. I think I love you.